Missing you...

sometime...
I just need accompany...
it just when I'm feeling lonely,
or bored...
someone can talk with me...
sigh...

is that I'm look scary?
is that I'm look horror?
is that I'm look terror?

I know I'm a bad guy :(

hmmmm....
sometime really...
will keep think about you...
even how busy...
my mind also will think about you...
really miss you badly :(

I'm afraid to find you~

Where's you...im tired.

I have a confusing mood...
I have a always ignore by others...
And I have no direction...
Wanted someone can be my power
Wanted someone can manage me
But.....

The one I like don't like me...
No one like me....
Wanted someone to like...
No wonder how are you...
Just good enough...

It's also need feeling...
If no also didn't work...

Everyday...
I wanted have someone can talk with me
Accompany me to chat...
Talk about life...
Share something together...

But no...
Really really feeling lonely...
Hope have a  person can hold my hand
And get out the hole...

I hope have a person can make my world complete
I hope have a person can make my world beautiful
I hope have a person can make my world brighter
I hope have a person can talk about my world and her world...

Customrily...

Finally,
I can back my home...
must rest enough...
tired life...
make me tired...

maybe is me customrily independent...
customrily alone...
customrily....

now feel...really tired of my life...
I'm a insecure children...
no people care...
do what I want...
sometimes really hope,
have someone can care about me...
take care about me...
know me or understand me...

sometime want to vent...
but who can listen?

today I'm surprise...
someone call me...
care about me...
haha~by the way
really very thanks...
let me feel conciliative...
: P

sorry ar...
yesterday went to pavilion,
wanted to buy unicorn for you...
but all minion and unicorn doll
have been sold out already :(
feeling guilty...

only you will accompany me...
only you will chat with me...
thanks you didn't ignore me :')
I'm actually touching...
give you a hug xD
haha...

I'm sorry I did...

I'm conciliative...

cause of your message...

it's a motive...

that can make me feel...

still got someone care...

always and always...

I hope someone can care about me...

know my exist...

I know I'm very tiny...

but I still need someone,

accompany me...

talk to me...

when I needed...

I know you are seen my inbox message...

I'm waiting the answer...

because...

I want to know...

then I can know which path,

which way I should do...

I should walk...

If not...

I'm very confuse...

and complicated...

cause I don't know your mind...

your answer...

if can...

you can told me the true...

I can accept...

I can understand...

If I din't tell you my heart...

my mind...

that I like you...

I will feel very uncomfortable...

so...that why I told you...

I hope you can also,

tell me your mind...

and the true...

however the answer...

at least I know...

I really hope that, 

I can share with you my story...

my unhappy...all of my thing...

you can tell me your unhappy or other thing...

if you want...

btw thanks you...

and I miss you badly...

A Clown behind story

I'm a clown...

in front you all,

I'm a clown...

I can make all of you happy...

I can make all of you smile...

but when everyone are leave...

but when everybody are back...

me are still nothing...

me are still alone...

when I take off my clown mask,

back into my space...

behind I'm still alone...

behind I'm still nothing...

sometimes...

I really want to tell someone about my thing...

I wanted to share about me and my mind...

but who can...

I also need someone to know me...

and understand me...

:(

Sigh...

I hope in front you all,

I can be a clown...

but when I take off my clown mask...

behind me,

have someone care about me...

know about me...

can let me feel I'm no alone...

and hope someone can said...

"Janez you still got me "

or accompany me...

that's enough...

Maybe infront you all I'm strong...

but actually I'm not you think that strong...

I'm weak...just pretend to stay strong...

If I not stay strong,weak for who see?

The favorite one

Well,the one my favorite is you :)
sorry...
I shouldn't let you  know...
but if I keep it inside...
I'll feel very uncomfortable...

So...
I should let you know my mind...
don't let you misunderstanding...
cause I really like you so much...
you can view my blog here
some post are writing about you :P

Sorry,I have no reason to tell you
why I like you...
I also don't know how to explain...
I think it's feeling...
no reason....
if have reason that is lie...

actually I just wanna to told you only
don't have any meaning...
I just want let you know...
because I keep it inside
very uncomfortable...

I hope this won't influence our friendship :(
we still is friend right?
I don't want because of this...
then lost you...

JOAH~

What would you say?

Seriously,
If I date you,
What would you say?
What is your answer?

Should I try?
should let you know my mind?
or let you view my blog?
I really want to know your mind...

I really like you so much...

Can I know your feel from me?
In my mind have many questions...
Want to ask you...

Everytime I care about all your status...
Everytime I want to find you but...
Always and always afraid...
Always afraid will annoying you...

I always take the risk to find you...
I always will think very long the problem
Should I find you or not…can I?

I really want to share with you my thing
And talking with you...

Did you know when I was message with you
I was very happy...
I also afraid to lost you
So I don't dare to close you or keep find you...
But I can't control... still wanted to find you: (

Can you give me a chance to take care about you?
I wanna be with you... always accompany you
When you need me...

Complicated...

I'm very complicated...
please give me some advise...
which way
which path
should I walk?

Just like a mutliple choice
and always and always...
I don't know how to choose
I will use more time to think
thinking which one should I choose...
but at last...
always no result...
and the result was...
just guess ~_~

Sigh~

My life
My way
please give me a clear answer...
I want to move forward...
I don't want just stay there...
I need to improve
and improve...

but I can see self improve...
just the target...
not sure...
Give me a right path,
and bring me...
look for the right path to walk
and look for the right one...