A Clown behind story

I'm a clown...

in front you all,

I'm a clown...

I can make all of you happy...

I can make all of you smile...

but when everyone are leave...

but when everybody are back...

me are still nothing...

me are still alone...

when I take off my clown mask,

back into my space...

behind I'm still alone...

behind I'm still nothing...

sometimes...

I really want to tell someone about my thing...

I wanted to share about me and my mind...

but who can...

I also need someone to know me...

and understand me...

:(

Sigh...

I hope in front you all,

I can be a clown...

but when I take off my clown mask...

behind me,

have someone care about me...

know about me...

can let me feel I'm no alone...

and hope someone can said...

"Janez you still got me "

or accompany me...

that's enough...

Maybe infront you all I'm strong...

but actually I'm not you think that strong...

I'm weak...just pretend to stay strong...

If I not stay strong,weak for who see?