Hello my dusty blogger~

Recently just finished year 2 first sem exam and then now is holiday...

Holiday is damn boring :(

Very very bored + decadent ~

Sigh~

Some times really need someone who can lend me her shoulder~

I'm very tired of the journey of Lone Ranger ~

I just hope someone can talk to...

I just hope someone can accompany :)

Is that hard?

Hmmm....I just can say whatever will be will be :D

This is Life...

Feeling glad,
I'm lucky to have good teachers
no matter is in education or dance
because have their help.

They help me
make my path easier
make my path wonderful
make my path less block
achieve my dream path
thanks the opportunity,
thanks,god bless...

Nowadays,
I'm quite busy
totally didn't rest well
totally tired like hell
almost sick....

My schedule is damn full,
I have no time to relax
I'm so long didn't watch movie already
watch movie is my favourite :(

and no one can accompany me to watch movie
it's sad...when I wanted to watch
but I don't know want to find who...

I hope the person that
appear in my world
appear in my life
I'm tired...
I need you...
to lend me your shoulder or arm
I want to lye on you...

are you nearest with me?
are you far from me?
are you coming to me ?
are you side of me?
where are you?

I'm...lost...

Hmmm... May I have it ?

Since my blog become dusty already...
recently no time to touch...
busy on assignment...
busy on practice....
dancing...

but still got think about here...
because I have many memories in here...
I write what I feel at here...
I write what I like or dislike at here...
just for vent, and I will very comfortable after I write....

So busy...
and wanted someone can take care of me...
I scare sick...
need more concern...
to feel happiness...

I'm curios...
may I know your last name ?
hmmm....
may I have it?

Glad that have you all...

I glad to have this family

LnG dance club...

this place make me have

a lots of memories...

the thing that can't buy...

it's memories...

with you all...

I think I won't forgot everything in 

this dance club...

it's was very treasure...

Inside I have met a lots of friends...

we play together,

we dance together,

we eat together,

we strive together,

we bullshit together,

and we cry together...

inside have a lots of crazy,

mad and prevent people... hoho

(hope them won't see my blog )

Inside I have three granddaughter also,

they call me "Ah Gong"

they's very annoying,

always and always...

bully me~haha

but they's cute 

I like them so much...

they will accompany when I'm emo,

or I'm alone...

I think this is fate...

the fate bring me into this family,

give me happiness...

bring me to met them...

 let me have a lots of memories...

in my college life...

makes my life more meaningful :)

Thanks you all...

and love you all~

Lost something confidence...

Argh...
I hating myself...
hate my self can't doing well...
why...
sigh...

Even is my strong section...
I also can't done well...
what happen to me?
what I'm doing ?

Janez jiayou...
I believe I can do it,
do well...
trust yourself...
be confidence...

Six pack also can make it already...
why those thing you can't do it?
yes...
I can...
sure can...

Jiayou,don't give up...
use your perseverance...
and strive...
I believe in the short time...
you sure can do it...
10days left...
add oil :)
I will use my best status...
and performance the best show to all audience...

Fighting!!!
DOPE!!!

I need your love :'(

I take a deep breath every time I pass your door
I know you're there but I can't see you anymore
And that's the reason you're in the dark
I've been a stranger ever since we fell apart
And I feel so helplessly
Watch my eyes are filled with fear
Tell me do you feel the same
Hold me in your arms again
I need your love
I need your time

Now I'm dreaming, will ever find you now?
I walk in circles but I'll never figure out
What I mean to you, do I belong
I try to fight this but I know I'm not that strong

All the years
All the times
You have never been to blame
And now my eyes are open
And now my heart is closing
All the lies
All the waste...

Stay strong...

Recently,quite busy...
I'm busy for my study...
training and dancing...
I just left those thing...
if not I'm nothing...

everyday, I practice...
and practicing my self...
just because success...
it's my target...

something that I know...
if you have the way to walk,
but you didn't do or strive for...
it's just nothing....
just like a dust...

"practice make perfect"
I believe this word...
it's works for me...
I always tell myself...
practice practice practice...
get better and better...
don't give up :)

Every time I strive,and  I see back my effort...
that I only know,only myself know my effort...
what I strive for ?
where's my power?

The person who I like...
although she just like in my dream...
the dream that I can't realize...

Something that I know,
it's your then it will be yours...
it's not your,how you impose
at last also will gone...

I miss you...
but I have no reason to find you...
I'm also scare that you'll ignore me...
actually I know you're voiding me :(
sorry about that,I know I'm annoying...
I just need your sight...

It's me, a simple Janez

                                              The part of random moment in my dance...

Yea..I'm a person who love dancing...
especially is break dance...
only in bboying,
I can find myself.
when I'm bboying,
I can feel my expression
I can feel my world
if not ,
I'm don't know what kind of person are me...
I maybe is a hopeless person without hope...
when I dance...
I have hope
I have target
so ,I make an effort for my hope and my target...
I have the way
and I know how to walk it...
that's why I'm not easily giving up...

sometime,I'm alone
sometime,I'm talkless
sometime,I'm emo
It's just don't want to talk much...
and I like silence...
because I know something you talk much also useless...
if the person know, it should be know what kind of person is you
and I won't talk much just want to treat people happy...
and also I wouldn't like to "talk cock" or something rubbish...
sometime joke it's okay...
because I feel it's nonsense...

If you want to know me
If you want to know my world
just told me...
because I'm the person who won't like to talk much
and the person who very shy
actually it's very simple...
when you know me...

I'm not own-self...

Feeling incomplete...
I can't found out the answer...
need someone to help me complete...
my world...

our laughter is being freeze in the past...

sometime I also don't know...
my feeling...
what is my feeling...
which path is right...
which path is wrong...
I hope that I took the right one...

I wanted to give up...
and try again...
but...
I was tired...
I'm lazy already...
so now,stuck there...

In the half way...
Incomplete...

actually I should try others?
should not stuck there?
please give me the right path...

should I give up?
don't chase already?
find others?
try others?

I hate myself :(
like a robot in other side...
hate myself don't have the energy...
I really don't have power already...

Obsess ~

Hi,peace...
I'm tired...
tired to explain...
if you know me,
I don't need to explain much...
if you don't know me,
then just forget it...

I'm very like her...
but I helpless...
I don't how she feel...

when she ignore me,
my feeling is very shit...

yesterday my friend gift me a key chain,
that key chain write about "don't chase already".

Yea,that's right...
should I don't chase ?
I'm tired...
I'm really hate people ignore me...
every time like I'm invisible :'(
I'm because of you,
I be initiative...
just because I really like you...

but I even haven't start said want to chase her...
I wanted,but I didn't do :(
did I try first before give up ?
I don't afraid to fail,
I afraid I didn't try...
should I?

It's Fucking feeling...

Missing you...

sometime...
I just need accompany...
it just when I'm feeling lonely,
or bored...
someone can talk with me...
sigh...

is that I'm look scary?
is that I'm look horror?
is that I'm look terror?

I know I'm a bad guy :(

hmmmm....
sometime really...
will keep think about you...
even how busy...
my mind also will think about you...
really miss you badly :(

I'm afraid to find you~

Where's you...im tired.

I have a confusing mood...
I have a always ignore by others...
And I have no direction...
Wanted someone can be my power
Wanted someone can manage me
But.....

The one I like don't like me...
No one like me....
Wanted someone to like...
No wonder how are you...
Just good enough...

It's also need feeling...
If no also didn't work...

Everyday...
I wanted have someone can talk with me
Accompany me to chat...
Talk about life...
Share something together...

But no...
Really really feeling lonely...
Hope have a  person can hold my hand
And get out the hole...

I hope have a person can make my world complete
I hope have a person can make my world beautiful
I hope have a person can make my world brighter
I hope have a person can talk about my world and her world...

Customrily...

Finally,
I can back my home...
must rest enough...
tired life...
make me tired...

maybe is me customrily independent...
customrily alone...
customrily....

now feel...really tired of my life...
I'm a insecure children...
no people care...
do what I want...
sometimes really hope,
have someone can care about me...
take care about me...
know me or understand me...

sometime want to vent...
but who can listen?

today I'm surprise...
someone call me...
care about me...
haha~by the way
really very thanks...
let me feel conciliative...
: P

sorry ar...
yesterday went to pavilion,
wanted to buy unicorn for you...
but all minion and unicorn doll
have been sold out already :(
feeling guilty...

only you will accompany me...
only you will chat with me...
thanks you didn't ignore me :')
I'm actually touching...
give you a hug xD
haha...

I'm sorry I did...

I'm conciliative...

cause of your message...

it's a motive...

that can make me feel...

still got someone care...

always and always...

I hope someone can care about me...

know my exist...

I know I'm very tiny...

but I still need someone,

accompany me...

talk to me...

when I needed...

I know you are seen my inbox message...

I'm waiting the answer...

because...

I want to know...

then I can know which path,

which way I should do...

I should walk...

If not...

I'm very confuse...

and complicated...

cause I don't know your mind...

your answer...

if can...

you can told me the true...

I can accept...

I can understand...

If I din't tell you my heart...

my mind...

that I like you...

I will feel very uncomfortable...

so...that why I told you...

I hope you can also,

tell me your mind...

and the true...

however the answer...

at least I know...

I really hope that, 

I can share with you my story...

my unhappy...all of my thing...

you can tell me your unhappy or other thing...

if you want...

btw thanks you...

and I miss you badly...

A Clown behind story

I'm a clown...

in front you all,

I'm a clown...

I can make all of you happy...

I can make all of you smile...

but when everyone are leave...

but when everybody are back...

me are still nothing...

me are still alone...

when I take off my clown mask,

back into my space...

behind I'm still alone...

behind I'm still nothing...

sometimes...

I really want to tell someone about my thing...

I wanted to share about me and my mind...

but who can...

I also need someone to know me...

and understand me...

:(

Sigh...

I hope in front you all,

I can be a clown...

but when I take off my clown mask...

behind me,

have someone care about me...

know about me...

can let me feel I'm no alone...

and hope someone can said...

"Janez you still got me "

or accompany me...

that's enough...

Maybe infront you all I'm strong...

but actually I'm not you think that strong...

I'm weak...just pretend to stay strong...

If I not stay strong,weak for who see?

The favorite one

Well,the one my favorite is you :)
sorry...
I shouldn't let you  know...
but if I keep it inside...
I'll feel very uncomfortable...

So...
I should let you know my mind...
don't let you misunderstanding...
cause I really like you so much...
you can view my blog here
some post are writing about you :P

Sorry,I have no reason to tell you
why I like you...
I also don't know how to explain...
I think it's feeling...
no reason....
if have reason that is lie...

actually I just wanna to told you only
don't have any meaning...
I just want let you know...
because I keep it inside
very uncomfortable...

I hope this won't influence our friendship :(
we still is friend right?
I don't want because of this...
then lost you...

JOAH~

What would you say?

Seriously,
If I date you,
What would you say?
What is your answer?

Should I try?
should let you know my mind?
or let you view my blog?
I really want to know your mind...

I really like you so much...

Can I know your feel from me?
In my mind have many questions...
Want to ask you...

Everytime I care about all your status...
Everytime I want to find you but...
Always and always afraid...
Always afraid will annoying you...

I always take the risk to find you...
I always will think very long the problem
Should I find you or not…can I?

I really want to share with you my thing
And talking with you...

Did you know when I was message with you
I was very happy...
I also afraid to lost you
So I don't dare to close you or keep find you...
But I can't control... still wanted to find you: (

Can you give me a chance to take care about you?
I wanna be with you... always accompany you
When you need me...

Complicated...

I'm very complicated...
please give me some advise...
which way
which path
should I walk?

Just like a mutliple choice
and always and always...
I don't know how to choose
I will use more time to think
thinking which one should I choose...
but at last...
always no result...
and the result was...
just guess ~_~

Sigh~

My life
My way
please give me a clear answer...
I want to move forward...
I don't want just stay there...
I need to improve
and improve...

but I can see self improve...
just the target...
not sure...
Give me a right path,
and bring me...
look for the right path to walk
and look for the right one...

Something Must Let you Know...

something I must let you know...
they said I like you...
that's real....
I really like you....
J....e...

in warp party
they just play me...
but them also know I like you...
that time I can't stop...
can't stop them to said about asther...
I'm helpless...
that not true...
really...

actually I'm angry is...
me like you....
and them already know...
still play play...
still yet others pull in...
sigh~i can't do anything...
so I just can quiet let them...
sorry...

that day I'm happy...
cause I have take photo with you...
and I'm very expect can take photo with you...
but...
I know the picture never upload...
sigh~

I really hope that I can make more memories with you...
can everytimes chat with you...
talk about my problem my life...
cause I wanted to share with you :(
I really hope can...

I'm a shy and passive person...
but I know I must be active...
because I really wanna strive for what I want...
I dont wan to lost...
if can...

I afraid you will feel I very annoying
so don't dare to keep find you...
actually I'm really wanted to find you...

sorry...maybe you don't know...
but now let you know okays ? :')

I like you...seriously
Miss.Joanne....


I can because of you wear specs...

Envy & Strive...

A shining light~
So bright lah ~
I'm envy...
envy around my friends~
them all already have their...
Mr.right or Miss.right ~_~

I'm very envy lah.....
feel like also want too xP
but it's can't impose
so just let nature take its course bah...
but if can,I wanna strive for...
strive for the one I like....
if never strive...
never know the answer...
better never try before...
got a word...

don't afraid to fail...
afraid you don't try...
think positive...

I think is time to find someone...
to talk about myself....
I need someone to give me advise...
and listen my story
understand me...
would you want to listen and talk to me?

Sometime I very scare I will disturb you..
or scare will make you feel annoying :(

I will never give up...
I just will strive for it....
even how hard....
even how tired....

I believe it will past...
and I believe I can do it :)
Jiayou Janez...
PEACE~

Pretend my emo

Sometime when I'm like lunatic
it's real happy or pretend sorrow
but I'm pretend sorrow
I also think my pretend was very well

but all of my friends ask me
today what happen to you?
because usually I'm very quiet
and won't talks so many
or do something funny~

I said I'm nothing :D
but actually I'm pretend something
because I don't want to make myself in sad place
so I pretend...like a mad man
make some funny for you all

I know I'm an Emo machine...
But I also don't want to be Emo machine
I envy you all...
I also wanna happy
I also wanna got someone to love :')

Actually I'm very miss someone...
So I pretend don't think...
I'm wanted to SMS she
or find she talks to she
but I'm afraid she will dislike
and also scare I disturb she...

So I don't dare to find she...
I wanted to find...
I wanted to brave...

It because of you...
I do...
I can brave for you
Can I? Ms.J

Cheer up... :)

                                 I hope that I can make more memories with you ~
                                    I will always by your side and accompany you ~

                                     I would like to be your Mr. Right :')

I was always a person in the exercise a person..

I do not waiting someone

                                           I waiting for nothing

...

Although not everything can get it

but I wont impose

but I will strive for what I want

Especially is you...

I'm walk for a long way

look for someone

and no one was attract me

till that day I met you

...

Since everyone have toward their dream go on

I like still at the same place

I should do something

It's time to move forward already

Janez...

Emo and Emo...

Right,my friend said...
if you emo only think about me
then when you stop emo
will better and nothing...
well, you still have your boyfriend what...
you don't need me lah~

if you were really love me
that time you should know...
know I'm what kind of person...
then wont leave me...
that you know how I beg you
and how I cry infront you
all the way I try...
and you just reject~
you know that feel of me?
well anywhere,it's past already...
now I'm fine...and thanks you

for me now....
I'm afraid...
I think she know already...
sorry...
just let nature take its course...
I wont impose...
bad feeling...
feeling worse...
I dont want like that one...
just blogging..
just write what I feel :(
I just write for abreact~
I want to feel better....
dont mind okays?

Something I don't dare to tell you...

I'm the person who always lack of self confident
and always put myself into emo place....

I tried to be better and perfect....
but nothing was worth it...
and none one was perfect...

I have afraid and afraid...
I have lost my confidence
confidence where you?
please don't leave me...
I need you....

I'm scare I'm not suitable you...
I'm scare I'm not your taste...
I really hope that I can have a chance...
because you are the one
who make me escape my past...
and you are the one who make me
want to take care of you...
I really like you...

I'm afraid no chance for me
may I be your mr.right? /_\
you're my miss.right ~
thanks god to let me meet you...
when the day I see you...
I already have attracted by you...
for me,you too have attractive =x

that time I told myself
if I got chance I want to talk to you
and I wanted to chase you /-\ if can...
but I don't think so...
until I add your FB then I still dont dare
to chat with you~but that day I really can't control myself
I saw you online then I take my brave come out to chat with you xD
until now...I always keep think about of you and wanted always can chat with you
but I dont know how is your feel....or how do you feel about me?
I'm really afraid....
and do you have favorite people?
I dont dare to ask you...
I afraid to know the answer...
I dont dare to think more and more...
I just pretend...

May I have the chance ?
can I be your Mr.right?
Miss.right~
I'm really fall in love to you...

Can I?

what happen to me ?
why I keep expect something?
I'm keep checking my phone notification...
hmmm...why?
it's be cause see got your notification or not... /_\
actually I'm miss you so bad :(

yesterday I'm very happy~
although I'm shy and afraid to meet you~
but actually I'm very expect and want to meet with you xD
me and you memories have increase....
thanks you~so long never have people chit chat with me already
if can I hope every time can lunch with you and chit chat with you
share about our thing like that...
if you want just call me ~I always be with you :x
actually I wanted to have someone can talk with me by using english
because I would like to learn and improve my english

thanks god let me have the chance meet you...
I dont expect what~
but I just hope can like this ~
eating with you
chatting with you
or other else...
already enough~
then I already very happy enough ~

一个人~

今天一个人背包旅行了半天~
也是为了R16而去的~
虽然一个人很寂寞~
但是也不错啦>< (安慰自己)

去了R16~
有好多的BBOY
我想给我一年时间
明年我一定参加

在那里你会看到真正BBOY BGIRL的文化
以BATTLE的方式这才是所谓的BREAKING
在那里我也看见最值得RESPECT的是
有一位有小儿麻痹的BBOY
他的双脚没办法站起来
但是他没放弃的兴趣就是BBOY
我觉得是最值得我们RESPECT的
PEACE~ LOVE~ RESPECT

好开心~因为我敢和她聊天了！！
哈哈哈哈~我看我是傻了@@
一个天一个地 她在那 我在这
难道真的是一见钟情？
发梦啊~真的是 （就让我发吧XD）
不过我就是喜欢这样类型！！
哈哈哈~不管啦 发桥啦

会的...

有时候做朋友总好过连朋友都没得做

虽然有时很想要

但有些东西不是你想要就要

强求不来....

虽然说顺其自然

但是顺其自然没那么容易

如果不主动也是 改变不了的

顺其自然其实就是 

安慰自己的理由吧....

有些东西有些人

就算你真的很喜欢

但是只能喜欢只能欣赏

而且我也比较被动吧

没什么习惯主动

所以只能默默的喜欢欣赏就好

也许这样也满足够了

I tried to be my best~

也许我没资格

也许我没样子

也许我没那么好

总有一天我一定会踏出这一步

我会勇敢起来的 主动

我会为 “你” 站起来

所谓的你就是

我的下一个“你”

我也不知道是谁 :)

我没胆但我想...Say

假如网络聊天的对象只是一个软件，那么假装或许碰巧不知者是否更幸福?《眼泪》

成长之路

我需要有那么一个世界，
可以让我畅所欲言。
我希望有那么一个人，
可以走进我的世界。

我不要不属于我的东西，
我也不要不是真心
给我的东西。

我不会那么执着
我不会那么固执
我不会那么强求了

因为有些东西就算
你再怎么坚持
还是不能改变的
还是要接受

就好像一样你的东西
跌在地上
当你把它捡起来时
却发现前面已经有裂痕
你还是得接受
因为它是你的
你想抛弃吗？
难道就因为这一点缺陷？
醒醒吧 :)

有些东西就是要有
缺才会显得完美
东西与人没有十全十美的
领悟吧....

放下不该执着的
放下不该固执的
放下没有必要强求的

是我累了吗？

我微笑，
只是為了掩飾更多的悲傷...
我轉身，只是為了遮掩湧出的淚水...
我離開，只是為了躲藏真實的不堪...

不知道自己是不是没勇气
所以怕了 不想太主动了

总是会害怕 没自信
很想，但是没勇气了
害怕。。。

我可以哭，可以哭
但是不可以不坚强
因为后面
还有一群人在等着
看我的笑话

有时候以为只要
很认真地喜欢
就可以打动一个人
却原来，
我只是打动了我自己

你不懂的我的沉默
又怎能懂的我的难过？

Emo一下就好...

放弃了，就不该留恋
失去了，就不该回忆

放下该放下的你
退出没结局的剧。

我只是希望有个人，
在我说没事的时候
知道我不是真的没事。
只是希望能有个人，
在我强颜微笑的时候
知道我不是真的开心。

有时候我沉默
也是一种
发泄情绪的方式。

有很多时候
宁愿被误会
也不想去解释
信与不信
就在你一念之间
懂我的人
何必解释？

Shut up
you just know my name
not my story....

看穿但不说穿
很多事情，
只要自己心里有数就好了
没必要说出来.....

20／5~ 5.2.0

今天520
祝大家520快乐
还有祝大家有情人终成眷属
虽然今天对我没什么意义

但是今天有很特别的任务
就是去帮人家flash mob
求婚的flash mob
和一群热爱舞蹈的朋友
也就是我的大学学院的
舞法舞天社团的一群
舞舞们~

我羡慕这一对情人
真的真的 哈哈
真的是为他们高兴啊
今天真是开心的一天
和一群爱跳舞的朋友一起
很开心认识你们：）谢谢

虽然过去的事都过去了
也回不来了 那么我
就..放开吧 应该
创造新的回忆
勇敢的去吧....：）

我是面啦~

哎哟~为什么大家都觉得我是Gay啦

Fuck你们啊~

我是喜欢女生的啦~

也是会有喜欢的女生

会有欣赏的女生的咯

可能我的女人缘没那么好啦

所以认识比较少女生啦

虽然有时跟男生相处到比较好

那只是好朋友啦 没其他了咯

是因为好说话 有共同的话题嘛

喜欢男歌手是因为欣赏他们的才华

不会因为很喜欢和太迷那种

是有欣赏的女歌手 就不会迷

纯粹喜欢与欣赏 不会迷

就不会一看到就 哇~很帅还是很美

然后就很喜欢的那种啦~

我也不会很主动找女生啊

因为我会害羞的咯

当然跟男生不会害羞所以才比较好

也可以主动啊

但是如果是对女生就自动会变passive了

哈哈~害羞 不敢嘛

知道的啦~~

高级中文的感想

在学院上高级中文
老师给我们的了许多影片
有电影 有短片 有广告
每个影片都有意思
看了很有感触
虽然有时会很闷

老师说我们这班是最糟的
但是老师却没有放弃我们
感谢老师的坚持

今天老师让我们看了
lynas的影片 和 台湾反国光的影片
都很有感触 你就看到
我们现在的土地很糟糕
这片土地是我们的 我们应该勇敢站起来
不是因为不是你的地方就觉得不管你事
难道这样就不会影响到你吗？

你看大选 虽然不管其他国家的人的事情
但是为什么他们也会站出来为我们国家出一分力
他们其实没有必要这样做的
就是因为看不下去 所以站起来帮我们
老师说得对

我们不应该那么自私
应该为大家想想 为自己生活的地方想
看了那些影片 很感触

好啦~说到这
有看到下面的小说吗？
我得看完 然后写1500个字的感想啊
我自己的书都还没看完就要先看别的了>_<
加油咯~每天得阅读了

This is my style

好累~最近好累
很久没好好跳我的兴趣了
跳一下就整身痛
唉呀~好差劲哦
每天都搽一搽正骨水

不过我还是很喜欢
因为这是我的兴趣
我擅长的 我喜欢的
而且也习惯啦

我喜欢有自己的style
叫我做不适合或不喜欢的style
还是很难适应 感觉好勉强
因为我喜欢的 我擅长的
已经习惯了 突然转换会不适应

不过我还是喜欢我自己的兴趣
不会放弃的 也不会改变
就是喜欢 ：D peace
shave your style...
imma bboy =]

我只是不想说话

有时候真的只有这句可以形容自己
就是好象患了自闭症一样
突然不想讲话

真的...
有时候又会好象患了忧郁症一样
心情就突然会不好

这两句话真的很好的形容我
不然我再也想不到方法来形容我了

有时候会想找些事情来发泄
但不知道该怎么发泄
我想唯几个的方法就是

唱歌，听歌
跳breakin
会找人聊天吧

也许写写blog
心情会好些吧
也许这也是比较好的方法

有时想找些能听我说话的人
有时候也想找能陪我一起跳breakin的人

你不会说话没关系
听我说就好
你不会跳breakin没关系
想陪我跳就好

：）））

你还好吗？

想说今天五月十四
想对你说玫瑰情人节快乐
你应该很开心的生活着吧
所以不干涩也不打扰你了
没有我，你会更好吧

想知道你真的过的好吗？
没有我也许是种解脱

不用担心
我也过的不错
蛮充实 蛮开心
虽然有些忙
但是偶尔还是会想到你

最近都在忙考试
好压力 好烦
但是我会应付过去的
我必须面对 坚强与努力
所以拼了

不管怎样
只要我有努力过
尽力过
不管怎样都好
我都会满足
因为我尽力了
努力过了
虽然可能不好
但不放弃的继续坚持
相信我能做到的 ：）

妈~我爱你

今天是母亲节~
好想念妈咪啊
也好想念jb的朋友

原谅我没时间回去~
好忙虽然累 但还是不放弃
我会应付过去的：）
再过多多几天也是妈咪的受难日
咪,原谅我这个不孝子没能回去陪你过
我知道你也很忙 为了我们
谢谢你为我们做的
你也要好好照顾你自己啊 咪：‘（
咪，母亲节快乐~还有生日快乐
我爱你...谢谢你一直对我们的不离不弃
你的儿子很不争气说到这里眼泪就不停流了
咪，我会努力的 不会让你失望
你不要太担心 我会照顾好自己 我长大了
你自己也要照顾好你自己啦 你也不年轻了
虽然我有事不是很会说话和不想说话
但是都是知道你很关心我
有时间我一定会回去陪你 即使是吃饭罢了也好
我也是很想你的，咪....
很爱你儿子~

想你？so?

有种很想戒....
又很难戒的东西
叫做思念...

我试过很多种方式
想放想戒
但是都戒不掉
好难...

有时会问自己
想她又怎样
为什么要想
为什么要给自己痛
我也不想...想

我已经没有任何理由
没有任何权利了

我只是一直自然会想
一直会想...自然的想
要我怎么办
那就这样吧

我只是很突然的会想你
但却持续了我EMO的时间...

I like silent....
and silent is slowly killing me....

Worse thing~Yucks

My Blog My Profile :D

If you don't like I'm welcome you NEXT PAGE :D

I'm faint with those room mate
it's freaking annoying

speechless 

every thing like possible
no need do

no need clean

no need management

no need care

like not your business

like not your room

everyone don't know to coordinate
like no need coordinate 

what the F...

damn worse

everything I do 

everything I notice
I'm your mum?

Freak you please o0o

how old are you already ?

manage youself please 

Chill...

Childish

said something to you also

here can't,there can't

petty huh?

just go on...

let's worse :)

if you all don't care :)

是因为太爱你

亲爱的，以前我一直

一直追逐着你的背影

现在我决定不在追逐着你了

因为我不是谁

也不想成为谁

我知道我的一切你已不想要

即使在乎只会让你想逃

虽然有时回忆过去的你

还是会很失落

你和我都没错

只是承诺最后输给了眼泪

我知道我该放手

我知道我该低头

只是我的心不停地在跳

怎么能就这样离开？

曾经的每一分一秒。。。。

清楚地在我脑海里绕。。。

再见了分开你我世界。。。

我懂我也知道

你没有不舍得

牵着你陪着我也只是曾经

希望他是真的比我还要爱你

你已经远远离开

我也该慢慢走开了。。。

我会学着放弃你

再也找不到理由 找你

体贴解释成纠缠 坚持解释成野蛮

我想也许你不爱我了

所以变得不耐烦

眼看这一切 打扰了你的新欢

我再清楚也搞不清楚状况 

每当拿起了电话、

才发现已经没有了找你的理由。

也许我孩子气

也许我幼稚

但我幼稚我孩子气

都是因为在乎你

都是因为你

才会这样

真的希望是时差问题

也许时差会让你明白

我就是那么幼稚才那么爱你

不说话，不一定没感觉

不表达，不一定不爱你

就算真的嚣张 我也是个好流氓

沉默。。是最大的哭声 如果你懂

我想你
但是我不打扰你
但是我不烦你

我的心不知不觉就痛了
还要多久才会慢慢愈合

差一点脱口而出的话
毫无悬念你
这样的默契很难达到吧
我再说破坏气氛吧
我以为我能当做是老朋友聚一聚
我以为我能百无禁忌的幽默风趣
当你字字清晰的说不必痴心与你

好神气笑着说不出我可以
我以为我能喜怒哀乐取决我自己
我以为我能参透大丈夫何患无妻
当你若无旁人捧着电话对他关心
我叫的咖啡明明加糖不加冰

我不够狠 以为温柔是不去竞争

装作什么事 都没发生

我承认 假绅士才是我 最大的敌人
能笑我也尽量....

缺~

有一好
没有二好
没有一样东西是完美的
一定会有缺
只是看你自己怎么去看待

既然你已经坚持那么久了
为何又放弃
喜欢，爱就是包括他的所有
他的一切一定会有缺点

爱不是缺了就找
爱不是累了就换
既然爱为何那么想放弃
不是该共同进退吗

我是个没安全感的孩子
好想有个人疼爱
有人管 有人想念
有人照顾 有人关心
等等等。。。。

有时候像患了忧郁症一样、会突然心情不好。
有时候像患了自闭症似的、会突然不想说话。

当你最穷的时候

有时人到了什么都没有的时候
最明白最清楚
当你穷到你只剩下钱时
就是一无所有什么都没有时
你才明白钱只能够买到暂时的快乐
但是它买不到真正的快乐
我宁愿没钱但是我得到真正的快乐
我也不要钱
我宁愿舍弃
我要的不是暂时的快乐
我要的是真正的快乐

还有当你人一无所有时
最无助最低潮时
你也会看清一切
看到你的朋友是谁
他们给与你帮助
支持，动力，希望
他们愿意给于我这个犯错的人
一个希望一个机会
不抛弃与离开我
真的很谢谢你们~

每个人都会犯错
看自己会不会改过自新
如果他知错了悔改过了
他会是一个更好的人
更值得~因为他为了你知错
如果他不愿意悔改继续犯
那就放弃吧~

一些人是你爱的你最亲的人
最算每次犯下了错
你都能原谅接受
为什么不愿接受一个为了你而悔改的人呢
也许得到比之前更不同更精彩的爱.......

生不如死

我真的我不懂要怎样活下去的方式
真的很痛苦
明明很爱她
而她却无动于衷
只求那一次的机会
很努力很努力
劝自己加油
不能放弃
很想很想她
我又能怎样。。。。
i'll always want you...

我知道我没资格
但还是想说
你玩玩就好不要陷进去变真的
我能告诉你
最懂你最爱你的人
肯定是我

when i close my eyes i think of you
and the time we've had been through
even though were far apart right now
i remember back when you were here with me
how you're made my world complete
but now i'm left alone
we talked about love and hope
wishing we could start a life our own
i wish that i could live without you
why did you tear my heart apart
you said you love me throw the start
all those painful things you're put me through
but i' m stil loving you
i 've tried to give my best to you
i don't deserve the things you do
everything has gone to memories
i just wish i know the truth behind the lies

Fear

想念。。。
害怕来临的三月
那一天你的生日
我好想和你过
但我没资格
你应该不会一个人过
如果你和朋友一起过
我还不害怕
害怕。。。

好想好想你
心不停的扎
我能怎样。。

很努力了
不管怎么充实
让自己忙
我却只会越想你
没办法戒掉

对你的爱
真的就连那一丝毫的机会
都没有吗
看不出我的改变吗

有人和我说过
我给ta过一次机会
虽然之前他很过分
我提出了分手 之后ta挽回
但我从没后悔给过他这机会
因为值得

也很多人问我复合了？
我多想是那样〜
dont you try？

是爱吗

发觉我越不爱笑越不爱说话了
好像＂在一起＂里的甄子丹=_=
不是不爱笑和说话
有些事你可能不知道
也不知道我们是怎么过的
真的不想错过
但是不可能像电影那样的结局
就连一点一滴一次的机会都没有
好难〜她对我的防备太强了
我对他的思念也太强了
我只能忍着不敢一直找她

不管你有没有犯什么错
只要会回来
我都能接受
因为真的很爱你

你喜欢什么不喜欢什么
我都佷记得很清楚
不管我看到想到
在我脑海里的画面都是你
因为我真的很想你
很想很想

我控制不了自己不想你
我很想你
我控制自己不一直找你
因为怕你说我很烦
我尽力

我爱你

梦？

原来只是梦，在梦里好甜好幸福，梦醒来后却泪流满面。
原来ta只是进来我的生活只为了给我上一堂课，
转身就离开了。。。
真的那么快没感情了？
那么快忘了？
但我却一直都忘不了~
一直还有感情
那么久的感情不是假的
不是说要忘要放就放
是真的很爱很爱。。。。

真的有不那么不值得去留恋
这段感情了吗
说长不长 说短不短
我真的有那么差吗
那么让你不值得回来吗
你真的感受不到吗
真的忘了吗？

i miss you,but but im trying not to care.
i love you,but im trying not to show.
i want you.but what can i do
when you are not even mine ?

女生不是不喜欢男生玩game?

Especially dota.
I because of someone I quit to play game for long ago~
its going about two years already~
just sometime will play awhile when leisure but not dota.
I change because of someone
but now I really change~

Im very clear and regret
I repentance my fault
I change my all my bad
I change my shortcoming
just because of someone
just because in order to restore our love & affection

these thing I do just because of someone
just because I love someone
I really very sincere and intentions
to prove my love for you.

I know all is my fault
I really love you so I change I repentance everything my bad
just because to prove and restore someone.
why I do these thing?
it's just because I love someone
I don't want someone to get hurt again
I don't want someone to get grievance again
I already know and wake up
so I wont and don't want these hurt come to someone again
If you keep changing a new one you will keep getting new hurt
I could not bear and heartche.
please let me take care you my love

never did I think of you as toys or what
If I don't love you already I no need to do these thing
it's I really loving you
Im still loving you
when i close my eye i think of you

能不能把记忆关上?

你忘了也好 开心就好
好心 有好报

感谢不能让别人来说

你给过我的 她们是做不到的

那时候的幸福是真的 虽然过去了

我们也都经历了

释怀教育著仇恨 和平劝著天下人

故事发生便住下了 不管好的坏的

你让我成长了 就算是痛得值得

别太多过客祝你早日快乐

离开时别忘了 看看眼前的人

流泪记住了 还是微笑祝福著

我假装过去不重要

却发现自己办不到

能不能 就这样 忍著痛 泪不掉

说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找

再次拥抱 一分一秒 都好

天凉了 雨下了 你走了

清楚了 我爱的 遗失了

落叶飘在湖面上睡著了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘

墙上静止的钟是为谁停留

是不是和我一样赖着不走

向前走

我努力假装现在过得很好

现在的你看来已不需要我

也许在不同的时空 还牵着

你的手

想知道你真的过得好吗

没有我也许是种解脱

将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年 悄悄到

你身边

现在我试着习惯一个人过

也许你已经开始新的生活

你要知道

不管你怎么做 想要怎样
不想让我觉得有希望
只要我还爱着
不管你怎么做都用没有的
不管怎样我都能找到的
所以不要逃避我了
我说过
我不会在要求你什么
也不会打扰你   烦你
就普通
像平常人酱

你不想有二度的伤害
但你接受一个你不了解的新的伤害
你想在受新的伤吗？
你只是和他讲电话信息
就接受？你真的了解吗？
想在受伤吗？我不舍得你在受伤了
我知道我伤害了你   我错了
我忏悔过我想清楚过   也改过
都是为了你
因为我还爱你 所以我那么做
那么用心的挽回就是为了你
不让你在受到二度伤害
好好保护你爱你呵护你疼你

对~我其实可以不用做这一切
因为世界还有很多女人
但是我就是还爱你  我也不想
所以才会这样做
爱只有一个

你用时差具体化了你的从此不存在
而你的不在，只强化了你的存在。
因为我太爱你，所以我不该占据
我的时差是因为离不开有你在的从前,
你已不在这里 却总是没有离开这里...
让明天来证明 你是我最美丽的存在 ~

我的时差，用来想象所有你存在的促前。
是否你偶尔也会想起？
如果你不再想起，
我会很高兴你快乐到不需要想起我

想说罢了

这一路走来让我成长了许多
也让我了解了不少东西
这些都需要时间来了解
太多了

我们一向来都么什么吵架
我也不喜欢吵架
有些东西我知道当做不知道
是因为相信
也是因为隐私
我宁可自己受苦吃醋
也所以造成这样的结局
我们也没分开过
也没说分手过
只要一说就到了这种地步

我宁愿像其他人一样
有时小吵一下
然后又很恩爱回
所谓夫妻吵架床尾和
不然就是每次都吵吵闹闹
要分手结果都不是真的想然后又挽回
不是她挽回就是他挽回
最后还是没事了
大家都舍不得彼此的爱情
因为彼此的感情那么长那么久
可是得来不易 不要轻易放弃

我可能不像人家是什么冠军
什么区手     州手
我是我~
我虽然只会跳舞,玩电脑,唱唱歌
还有我只是努力在读好书为了将来罢了
虽然我不是读书的料 就是在奋斗
我所奋斗的都是为了你     能让你过更好
我才有这种冲力 现在没了 我还是会加油的

可能距离让你还不了解
你知道的只是表面      太少了
因为我以前也试过........
别再被伤害了....

我只是不会表达

我是一个不是很喜欢表达真正自己的人
人家看到我认为我是怎样的人
但其实我不是人家所认为那样的的
请不要用你的角度来看我
因为我不怕你看不懂我

我不是没目标没梦想的人
我只是不喜欢说出来让人家觉得我在吹牛
我自己的未来我的路
我已经想好了该怎么走
不想以后没有方向

对不起
我是个不会表达自己的人
所以你可能真的看不懂我
而我却没说
所以你才没法相信我
这一切我都是很在乎的
尤其是你和我们的未来
其实我已经决定好想好了
但这一切都没法实现了

再也得不到你的关心
再也得不到你的体贴
再也得不到你的依赖
再也没人可以听我说话了

你和他也许你还不知道他
远距离是很难了解很难摩擦
所以你什么都不懂
你才认为他是你所认为的那样
但其实错了并不那么容易

真的吗

想说你真的快乐吗〜

他真的能让你开心了吗
我真的很心痛
很吃醋
你知道吗

我很想你〜
别人都问我你呢〜
我不知道怎么回答
我多么的还想你还在

我知道我犯的错
真的不能原谅我这一次
让我们彼此还有一次机会吗
你真的不想回到我们的幸福了吗
。。。。。。
真的好爱你
你真的不爱我了吗
真的要和他在一起吗
真的不要回到我身边了吗
:'( 好想和你在回一起
真的〜我爱你

love you, no matter what

没有圆周的钟 失去旋转意义
下雨这天 好安静
远行没有目的 距离不是问题
不爱了 是你的谜底

等爱在 失温后 渐渐死去
你要我 在最爱的时候 睡去
我越想越清醒
爱你没差 那一点时差
你离开这一拳给的 太重
我的心找不到 换日线 它在哪
我只能不停的飞
直到我将你挽回

爱你不怕 那一点时差
就让我静静一个人 出发
你的心总有个 经纬度 会留下
我会回到你世界
跨越爱的时差

我越想越清醒
我只能努力
我只能不停的飞
我努力充实自己
我努力的做好准备
直到我将你挽回
那一点时差
就让我静静一个人 出发
你的心总有个 经纬度 会留下
我会回到你世界
跨越爱的时差

只要你肯

我知道这一切都是我的错
都是我造成的
但我真的清楚了
悔改了~
不是犯过错就没改过自新的机会吧><

不管是jb的朋友还是新纪元的朋友
他们都很希望我们复合回到幸福
他们都告诉我看了很可惜很心酸
大家也看得出我的用心是真的
谢谢你们的肯定你们的证明
也不少朋友都帮了我很多
也谢谢一些朋友给的意见
他们都给我好的方面的意见
能挽回的~我会努力的~
他们真的不希望看到几年的感情就没了很可惜

我知道我么做好我的本分
没做好我的责任
这次我真的知错了~
我真的很惭愧~
对不起~真的很爱你
我真的很心疼你~
宝贝...

我还是会继续努力的
我在原点等你和我一起回到幸福的原点
回到我们幸福的日子
只要你肯~
我很想你...

只要我们熬过了这关
就真的没有什么事都能那么容易拆散我们了
因为这可能是我们爱情让我们成长的一部分
只要能熬过就会更珍惜更爱彼此
你相信吗~你也不要放弃好吗
no matter what~
我爱你 

清楚了

我已经很清楚
很清楚你要的是什么
我要的是什么了
在那段时期
我一直都在想需要时间想
想了很多很多

我知道你的思想比较成熟
一直都在为我着想
而我却没为你想过
现在我明白你要的是什么了
当想告诉你时都来不急了
如果能再慢一点就好

我会给100分的肯定与安全感
让你不在害怕
让你不在提心吊胆
而我要的只是你能永远陪在我身边
就够了〜就很满足了
但都迟了就差那一点
我们就能很靠近彼此了
但是现在变的好远好远
都挽回不了了

不过你放心
我一定会一直等一直等
等待你回来的那天
我在把我满分的心满分的爱
都给你〜我最爱的女人
亲爱的宝贝爱丽〜

我爱你

其实我一点都不勇敢
我很胆小很害怕
是因为我真的很在乎
在乎这段感情
在乎你的一切
我不是烦
是真的真的
很想你
很担心你
很想见你
你知道这一次我放几多心思
去打动你去感动你吗
不是因为我堕落
我是真的在乎这段感情
这才是真正男人要做的
如果不挽回就真的不在乎这段感情了
我是真的很有心的挽回
难道你就不能破例这一次吗
把那些不吃回头草的话收回
接受我的挽回
回去我们这段感情开心开心不好吗
我放下所有事物尊严形象来求你
求求你〜很用心很真心的求你
你真的还是不肯吗？
我没求过你什么...就这一次一个机会都不能吗
几个月的感情都挽回得了~几年的挽回不了吗

很想说...

You are so beautiful to me
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧 难道
笑容没了 距离有了 快乐也走了
还是 真心死了 彼此不信任了
终於懂了 真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
My Love
笑容没了 距离有了 快乐也走了
还是 真心死了 彼此不信任了
终於懂了 真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了 就有坚持理由
别说 我会留在路口
不会走
爱你会直到最後
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以
复合

吾在场的证明

这多雨城市开始学会放晴
再转眼 伤心已在蓝天搁浅
我卸下沉重的思念

因为我太爱你
所以我不该占据
有时候我抽离
留下爱还在场的证明
只要你愿意继续信仰爱情
就证明
不在一起也能一起前进

因为我太爱你
所以我不言不语
让明天来证明
你是我最美丽的证据
当阳光远远的温暖你心扉
我相信你会想起谁

说不出的感觉...

都耗了这么久了 我就认了
要当忍者 就要忍着
都搞到这么糗了
拿你没辄
别再鬼扯 有的没的 够了
当快乐 变白了
别再唱情歌
别让副歌 再饶舌
再一次让我求饶
好想缩好小 刚刚好
缩回单细胞
没大脑 没烦恼
好好睡个好觉
好好抱一抱 让抱抱
爆破了泡泡
你忘了也好 开心就好
好心有好报

我自嘲 我自找 我自我解套
别 再打扰 再骚扰
谢谢你非诚勿扰

我的好有谁记得呢？
人家对我的好我记得~
但是没人记得我的好...
只有人记得我的坏
因为坏的事情最让人记得了...

宽

现在我才发现到
如果你没抱着仇恨或是报复的心
不管多久几迟都好
都是还有机会的...

因为如果你抱着那种心态
你就会想到过去人家怎么对你
你就会想怎样对回他...
这样真的会完完全全的没有了
我觉得我们应该试着把心放宽
也许事情就会很美好~

只要那个人是真心诚信诚意的
我觉得什么事都没什么大不了的~
因为凡是这样都好办事
我们又何苦呢
如果这样不是把自己弄的片体鳞伤
或是弄得多个敌人
还是变回陌生人了....

有些东西＜／3

有些东西
是你的就是你的不是的就不是你的
不管你怎样还是用什么方法
还是一样〜不是你的就不是你的
而这些东西不象我们想要的东西
只要有钱它就是你的了〜
这些东西是用钱买不到的
因为它根本不能交易〜

虽然人生就像是一连串的交易
所串连在一起来的〜
每个东西都有价格
只是看这个价格可不可以打动你〜
但感情却不一样〜
就算你付得起也不一定打动那颗心

我们要看的不是那个价格
而我们是要看的是价值
这就是很大的不同〜

后备〜

你对我如垃圾
不爱不理
我试过跳避你 偏偏失控继续想你 知道一定会输给你
但还是故意弄你
很难有你的惊喜

let me be the one
one and only one
没太多计算 为你辛酸
仍然死守的眷恋
let me be the one
do you still have someone？

爱若那么残害自己心窝
为何我要忍装作大方？

我只是〜

我只是一个
渺小的东西
根本不在你眼里
只是一个不知廉耻
厚脸皮
自以为是
不要脸的东西
是我自己自作多情
还带给别人困扰
还烦人家
当人家不开心伤心时
我可以陪人家到几迟都无所谓
当我不开心难过时
根本就没人会理我
我做人真的真的很失败
一个不起眼的东西罢了